some dark poems

we're still in the high school period here, but we have made it to junior year, which was one of the hardest for me. that's when i got heavy into depression and suicidal thought; i used to have tons of these poems but i can only find a few of them now. here we go:

feel no more
i will shed no more tears
for i can no longer cry
sorrow is useless
the pain is greater than the sky
i will no longer mourn
for it does me no good
you can't understand
though i once wished you could
but i no longer hope
for dreams don't come true
you proved that for me
though you never knew
i will no longer love
for it's a waste of a heart
this feeling dies hard
so why ever start?
all the emotions
they all end in pain
so why ever feel?
it's all done in vain

almost real
what a life i lead,
to live just for the day!
so little time to work,
so much time to play!
isn't it a joy
to have nothing left to do
so we can have a little fun,
together me and you!
oh wait, this isn't real
it's only just a dream
i knew that things couldn't be
as good as they seem